I have been a chronic procrastinator for a very long time. It started at a very young age(probably around middle school). I remember looking at homework and just ignoring it to do something else. But honestly, who wants to do homework in middle school? In high school my procrastination got worse. Especially around Sophomore/Junior year. Sophomore and Junior year was an “important” time because that was around the time college choices and future decisions started looming around the corner. Everyone was rushing around applying to all these colleges and prepping for the ACTs, but I was more concerned about playing video games and going to the gym. Granted I wasn’t really interested in going to school at all. I wanted to do something with art and I had a feeling that college didn’t have to be apart of the equation. But nonetheless I went to college(Or rather I just did it because everyone told me to do it). And that was when my procrastination came into full swing. There is so much do in college from going to extracurricular activities to just hanging out with friends(or just eating a lot of food which is what I did most of the time). Now I am going to be completely honest with you high school DID NOT prepare me for college. I struggled through it for the three years that I was there, and I could barely stand sitting in the class rooms. Of course there were some classes that I thoroughly enjoyed but they were few and far between. But I digress back to the procrastination. My procrastination became exceedingly terrible when I had to write papers. Especially when teachers had the audacity to give two six page papers and decided that they had to be turned in on the same day. It’s like they had this committee dedicated to making student life a living hell. I remember looking at the paper with just one paragraph and thinking “What’s happening on “Youtube”. I thought it would end when I left college but that wasn’t the case. Procrastination still comes around even when your trying to do something you’re passionate about, I even procrastinated quite a bit writing this blog right now(yes I just admitted it). The thing is procrastination itself isn’t bad it’s when you let it run your entire life that causes the problem. We are all human and we want to avoid things that make us feel “bad” but we must get past the bad to get to the good. Now excuse me while I procrastinate on writing another post.
I’m going to be completely honest with all of you, my writing schedule is complete trash. I haven’t uploaded in such a long time and it almost feels weird coming back. So much has happened in the past couple of weeks and a lot of it had to do with the direction of this blog. A part of me wants to keep on doing stuff about what is going on in the world today but another part of me wants to give commentary on what I find interesting. I also want to do things that have crossed my mind from time to time, and that makes me wonder if I spread myself beyond what is happening in the world does that still make me a columnist(sorry for the minor incoherence my mind is just going into a lot of different places). Another reason that I have been gone for a couple of weeks is due to my computer. I had to get an entirely new computer(which is actually just the same model) due to something happening in the framework(I accidentally broke the screen, I just tell myself that the framework messed up to make myself feel better). I am also working on another website that is dedicated towards my other passion in life Acting. Sometimes I wish I was one of those individuals that could just focus on one thing and do that for the rest of my life. But my mind simply doesn’t work that way. The Unofficial columnist is still going to be my go to writing spot though because I thoroughly enjoy what I have created here(especially the name). I want to eventually want to make this blog it’s own website so I can start doing more things with it. But all in all the reason why I have been gone for so long is due to my procrastination(which I totally neglected to talk about-maybe I will talk about it in a different article), Not knowing where I want to go with this blog, and other things that are currently happening in my life. I want to make it a goal to dedicate more time to this blog and all my other ventures. The Unofficial Columnist is gone but it has returned with new material and things to talk about.
Recently I came across an article that was talking about how Youtubers won’t be making as much money as they used to due to the ad revenue dropping and some companies dropping said Youtubers all together. The article itself isn’t what got to me it was the comment section that made me upset. At least half of the comments consisted of people saying “That’s what they get, now it’s time for them to get a real job” or “All Youtuber’s do is sit around and make videos”. Some people even started talking about those involved in other aspects of the arts (i.e. actors,writers, artist etc) and how they do no real work and give nothing back to society. And the only thing I could think about was how foolish(cause that’s the only word I can say without adding more vulgar language). If you don’t think that the arts don’t contribute to anything then look at some of the ads and shorts that aired during the 2017 Oscars. The arts provide a way for individuals to express themselves in ways that other fields can not. When we act we don’t just act like how the character would act, we act how we would react in the given circumstance. All the great books in history were made by creative individuals and people with visions of different worlds. And music has had such a huge impact on the world that it’s hard to pick one thing that stands out. Everyone has that one song that strikes them in a very special place that nothing else can, and everyone has that one artist or band that speaks to their very soul every time they release a track. Now YouTube is very similar to all these things but also very different. In the beginning YouTube was a platform for individuals to express themselves and accept their weirdness, but overtime it became a place to make a bunch of money. Granted their are Youtubers that make videos just for the sheer pleasure of it(Casey Neistat-a role model of mine, iisuperwomanii, Wong Fu Productions) to name a few. But it seems like in this day and age everyone just wants to make money and get the most views instead of creating content for content’s sake. And that makes since(cause everyone needs to eat). But we also need to appreciate what art does and what artist do for us instead of bashing people and telling them to get a real job. We all have different hopes,dreams, interest, and passions, and that’s what makes us unique that is also what makes us human. Also if everyone decided to get a “real” job this world would be pretty boring…In my opinion.
A couple of Months ago I had to drop out of college. It was one of the most daunting but experiences but at the same time I felt like their was a giant weight lifted off of my shoulders. All the people I thought I had to impress, all the expectations that were put on me, and all the “hopes” and “dreams” that were planned out for me had disappeared. But the funny part is I actually wasn’t planning on dropping out. I was apart of an organization that focuses getting students into and through college. So you’re probably wondering “Eric if the organization gets kids through college then why did you drop out”. It’s a long story but I will try to get to the good stuff. So during the college application process I had no idea what I was doing. The only thing I did was look at the college acceptance rate and if it was high enough(maybe 60% or higher) I applied. I know it isn’t really a good strategy. So I applied to several colleges and got accepted into three. One of them was an art school in Chicago which was close enough to my family, but far enough to get a unique experience. I was actually looking forward to going to that college however there wasn’t a lot of money that they were willing to give me. So I ended up going to a university(that I never heard) in a location that I never heard of(it was still in Illinois though). I spent three years in that University in a degree that I really didn’t care for, it all went down hill when I was trying to enroll in my fourth year in college. There was some left over money that I owed to the school, I asked the organization if they could help but unfortunately they helped at the last minute. By the time I got the money the University ran out of dorm rooms. So the only option I had was to drop out. As time passed I saw all of my friends graduating, everyone posting on their timelines about how they are so happy they graduated, and recently I attended a party for my friends graduation. Sometimes I feel a little bit awkward about being a drop out. Like I am a black sheep or a failure. Sometimes I look at different articles about successful people who have dropped out of college, I also started looking at documentaries about the educational system and how it destroys some people financially. But under all that awkwardness, I don’t feel like a failure. In a weird way I also feel like I have graduated except I just don’t have the paper. I am taking classes in something that I love and I am getting myself back into writing on a daily, so by that standard I am most certainly not a failure(In my opinion) College can be a very funny thing and but it’s most certainly not for everyone. Congratulations to everyone who has graduated this year, and to everyone that hasn’t graduation or won’t graduate on time don’t worry your time in the spotlight will come.